Tomorrow evening I’m meeting my “wine buddy” with the kids for tea at the very respectable time of 4.30pm….she has decided to give up wine and prosecco from February and is planning on “going out with a bang” which I would be too if it were me. Why do we do that to ourselves? We know we are having too much of something so instead of stopping we binge on it till we can’t face it any longer…I hope she gets a good run at it because I worry about her a lot, but maybe that is self projection and it’s myself I should be worried about???
The first thing that came into my head when she said that was “oh yeah February would be a much better time to start being dry”… wtf? Why would I waste the last 8/9 days and binge drink tomorrow and feel shit all day Saturday when I’m at work and then again in the evening (I usually have to have a very early night after the night before as I don’t sleep when I wake up with the wine witch in my head at 2am 🧙♀️). I eat loads of crap the day after I’ve drank, which again is something that makes me feel shit about myself physically and mentally. Speaking of shit I actually have a lot of stomach issues brought on by alcohol so there’s another thing.
Ok but the thought of ordering and then sipping those drinks at the lovely pub with everyone else seems very comforting…I need to make some lists to get through this
Reasons not to drink
Can be proud of myself on Saturday
Setting example for the kids
L will be there and doesn’t approve of getting drunk in front of kids
I can’t control myself and have just one or two, this has been proven many times
I have to teach on Saturday and I am a much better teacher when not hungover
Nicer evening on Saturday with my kids
Alcohol is poison and causes cancer
Can do human research and watch others getting drunk and feel smug ☺️
Reasons to drink tomorrow
My friend will want me to (only 1, the other adults won’t be bothered or drinking probably )
Will be more fun****not sure about this one because it’s all about perspective isn’t it?
Ok I can do this 🤞😭😭🙏🙏🙏🙏