I’ve brought myself to my favourite cafe for a huge piece of egg custard tart and a coffee… alone! No toddler, just myself to sit and breathe and write for half an hour or however long I want. Big treat for a mum of 3!
It’s been a bit of a hectic morning because my other half asked for a lie in (something which neither of us really ever get, well I don’t for sure) and because I’m such a push over I of course obliged him. He was supposed to have our 2 year old while I went to watch our 9 year olds assembly because last time I took her up she ran around a lot and it’s not fair on the other parents… but I ended up having to take her. She was great up there to be fair but then started kicking off in the pram walking home, and this progressed round the shops so I just had had enough. Rang Mr A (as he is self employed and seems to be not working atm 🤷♀️) and said I had to leave to pickup the in laws at the airport. I actually did think I had to leave at the time and set off but then checked and the flight is delayed, soooo instead of going home like I should have I’ve just stopped off here for a relax! Naughty! I can still have my secrets but they don’t have to be damaging ones like necking vodka when no one is looking!
I can’t wait to see my in laws they have been such a miss, maybe now I can get back out running and focus on training.
In my mind I have so much I NEED to get done NOW it is frightening, so I think I’ll make a list and perhaps it won’t be as scary …
Give up alcohol (already on this one)
Get fit/ train for half marathon
Sort out diet and exercise
Spend more time with kids
Spend more time with Mr A and mend broken relationship( first appointment at relate tonight 😖)
Complete (I mean start) teaching qualification course my boss has paid for
Spend more time with parents…
It seems pretty impossible that I would manage to do all of the above, but I think the most important one is the first one as that frees up a lot more time for me to be productive instead of sitting drinking and then losing a day to a hangover/ guilt and depression…. I can do this!
And by the way- I never eat a piece of tart to myself- I have today- self care all the way!