Okay so I did it again, I feel like shit, it’s over between me and alcohol. Alcohol in my house it’s all gone and the next time I tell myself it’s okay to buy any I’m going to call a friend and ask her to remind me why it’s not. I slept till 3 am so wasn’t too bad on the insomnia side of things. Which is the thing I hate the most.
During the night I was telling myself I was going to be really super positive today and I’m still hanging onto that …I just do feel a little bit sick and my stomach is not happy nor is my head but I guess if I didn’t have a hangover I probably wouldn’t realise how bad this is gotten.
I’m downloading the sober-time app as I think that really helps me see how far I’ve come once it gets a few weeks in.
I’m preparing for a crap day at work today as we have to sort out a big mistake I made so I probably could’ve done with having a clear head ,but there’s no point beating myself up about it – I may as well just try and be positive , pretend I feel great and get on with it. I’m supposed to be out running tonight with a friend but I might ask if she wants to go in the morning just because I can’t wait to crawl back into bed already and it’s only 8:30 am happy days 😩