It’s not you, it’s me…

So, I’ve been talking to a close friend I am able to confide in, and it’s easy to see when I talk out loud that my thoughts aren’t making sense. I think I’m eating enough in one breath, then I say but I’m really not I suppose…..it goes on…the similarities between the things I tellContinue reading “It’s not you, it’s me…”

Weighing up the issues

Hey, I am so grateful for all the supportive comments on my last blog, Ill try to address some of the questions here and think out loud… My partner weighing me – this does seem very controlling, but it is something I agreed to in my care plan when I was discharged from the EDContinue reading “Weighing up the issues”

Choose your poison

I had the best new years eve I can remember …ever I guess! No hangover, no fighting, no embarrassing memories or texts, you know none of the things that are shit about alcohol. There was however – lots of fun, laughter and cheesy dancing with my (almost) 10 & 11 year olds. I planned aContinue reading “Choose your poison”

Another successful night?!?!???

So, another night out without alcohol last night and I was so glad it was. As usual a night out with my partner Mr A started and ended in an argument and didn’t get much better in between. The good thing was this time, I wasn’t drunk, so I was completely aware and in controlContinue reading “Another successful night?!?!???”

Week 3, day 17….another obstacle ahead

So 17 days feels good and like I’ve had a good run at it this time, this is bad because this is when my mind starts to say “you weren’t that bad” “maybe one drink won’t hurt” “maybe try a new drink, like red wine as it’s probably just vodka/insert any alcoholic drink that makesContinue reading “Week 3, day 17….another obstacle ahead”

Treat time

I’ve brought myself to my favourite cafe for a huge piece of egg custard tart and a coffee… alone! No toddler, just myself to sit and breathe and write for half an hour or however long I want. Big treat for a mum of 3! It’s been a bit of a hectic morning because myContinue reading “Treat time”